One For Truth

Big Deal

So I found out that a six million dollar project that I've been working on for a year and a half was approved today. After three years of struggle in this job I'm in, I've generated one of the largest deals in my industry, and the largest deal of its kind in a key customer segment. Of course, being the worry wart that I am I moved quickly on from elation to concern with how I will pull this substantial project together. Lots of details to handle. And, of course, until the keys are handed over and the checks cashed, no deal is truly final... but give me a moment here.

I thought I'd take some time to reflect on the impact of what is certainly, bar none, the highest professional achievement of my life. Yes, it does feel satisfying. Yes, it is directly the result of work that I have been doing for over 18 months and of initiatives and new partnerships that I formed. This deal isn't an accident, and no one person is more responsible for it coming together than I am. And that feels pretty cool. And if all goes well (meaning I priced it properly and we manage costs properly) then the financial windfall will be gratifying too.

I point all these things out not to pat myself on the back. Honestly. I point them out because now, from the perspective of victory, I can say with all sincerity "Big Deal." Big deal. This is commerce. This nice project will turn to dust one day. And will the time and energy I invested in this really be worth it?

I can't say. But paychecks are what keeps my family in shelter and clothing, so I'm grateful for God's provision. And I feel a little more at peace, and a little more hopeful about the future, and more aware than ever before that these things are a big deal to me.

posted by Zeke @ 10:25 PM